Wednesday, April 9, 2008

19 week update

So here we are, recovering from the news that we're having a girl. I shouldn't say "recovering," which makes it seems like it was bad news -- which it's not at all. We love our girl more than anything in the world. But for some reason, I'm just very nervous about having a girl. I feel like I want her to stay in my belly for longer so I can protect her. As much as I'm fully comfortable with the idea that we're going to be good parents, I feel like these days girls are exposed and judged in different ways than even I was as a girl and that we won't be able to protect her for long. And my God, what if she's like me and hits puberty at age 9? Jay's decided already that we'll encourage her to play sports but NO CHEERLEADING--I can't bear the thought that she'll be out there being judged on her looks and how sexily she can hop around. And I want her to have good friends but not be too popular so she doesn't experience any more pressure than necessary. I know I have no say in these things, and that she's going to be who she wants to be and do what she wants to do and at the end of the day, all I care about is that she's content and has something to smile about as she goes to bed at night.

So once I come down from my nervous high, I just realize how much I love being pregnant and having her in my belly (my increasingly bigger, harder and hairier belly) and how much we can't wait to meet her.

But before she comes out, we've got to get a pretty room ready for her! Here's what we like for bedding:
And here's the crib we picked out:And here's the momma, who finally got contacts and looks like herself again (only very tired):

Everyone has been so sweet about us having a girl, as they are in short supply in both of our families. My mom and Keegan and my dad and Brie are all coming up to see us in the next month or so, which will be so much fun, and Jay's family and our friends have been so excited that it makes it hard to talk about anything else when we see them. All in all, this is a tremendously overwhelming and amazing time in our lives, and we try to take each moment as it comes and not wish it away for even a second, even when I wake up every morning with a stuffy nose and pee my pants a little every time I sneeze.

1 comment:

Amy G. said...

Emily--I know exactly how you feel! I, too, am nervous about raising our little girl. All that Adam and I can do is ensure that our home is a safe place for our Elizabeth. She'll encounter negativity in the outside world, but in our home, she is safe. And I need to try (very hard) not to criticize my own body in front of her--that's a tough one! Why is being a girl so hard?! Love you!!